After my last status update on facebook, which sounds like this:
''Don't really know what to believe. I don't wanna assume that everyone's an ass, but in my experience, they all end up hurting me. Am I an idiot for just giving up? I just can't take more lies.''
Now, I've got a bunch of messages after I posted this and it's so good to see that people actually care.
It's kind of hard explaining the entire story behind it, but lets just say that it would take a year to explain.
But basically, everytime I let myself fall for someone, I end up getting hurt.
And I know that it happens.
People get hurt all the time, but to be honest, I'm kind of sick watching all of my friends move forward with their lives and I'm stuck in the same place.
All of my bestfriends are engaged, and the rest are in relationships, so I'm always the third wheel.
Of course I want my friends to be happy, but I want to be happy too.
Get me?
It's frustrating, when it's all I think about.
Everytime I'm in town, I get happy couples shoved in my face and I constantly get asked if I'm seeing someone.
Even my mum always asks if there's someone special.
She doesnt even know how much I hate that subject, because we never talk about these things.
I know I can talk to her about everything, but when it comes to love and sex?
PASS!
But over to the mainpoint!
Last time I fell for someone, I fell hard, I even promised myself I wouldn't fall for his crap, but I did and it nearly killed me.
I know that this sound so far out and sad, but I just had to get it off my chest.
I can't always write happy thought and be all goofy and funny.
We all have experienced things that makes us rethink certain things and I'm to the point where I don't care anymore.
And I'm not saying that as a stubborn teen (even though I'm technically not a teen anymore), but as young adult with a lot of bad exeriences.
So what happens next?
Who knows!
But I really do appreciate the people who sent me awesome messages :)
You guys are great!
xx
- Melissa
:D I'm glad you shared this with us!!
ReplyDeleteI think that this was very well written and you got yourself across really fluently and understandably.
I sometimes feel the same way when i'm single but don't give up-there is a special someone out there for you. Its just unfortunate the amount of times you have been hurt in order to get on track to finding that one.
I dont know how any guy could even think about hurting you, your so funny and kind to people you dont even know and beautiful (I have seen your facebook photos).
:)
Thank you so much :)
ReplyDeleteThe scary part is that you're still young (very mature for your age though), but there's a lot of things that happens in your teen years that will drive you absolutely insane.
But you seem to have your head in the right place so I'm sure you'll be fine.
Thank you for being so supportive!
:)
Nice to see you are human too. :-)
ReplyDeleteBut this post makes me sadface. :(
I know for a fact that there are nice people out there, who aren't lying assholes.
Hope you don't dwell too much on this, because it will turn better. A nice, funny and attractive young woman such as yourself should have no trouble finding romance. I hope I'm not out of line here, but maybe your standards are too low? Self esteem/image issues, maybe? I don't know. You seem quite confident. But genuinely good people, especially women, seem to attract assholes automatically. At least from my observations. My advice to you is, don't play hard to get. BE hard to get. Make sure they understand that you are the boss.
Let THEM be the woman in the relationship. Make them your bitch first. Then make your judgments and choices.
I know you didn't exactly ask for advice, but I felt it was necessary. Feel free to mock my femininity or whatever. Girlpower!
Well, it's not anything wrong with my selfesteem..I just seem to fall for the wrong people.. Or maybe I just trust people to easy.. Never had a thing for bad boys though, so that's not it.. I'm just unlucky, I guess.. Thank you though :)
ReplyDeleteWell.. Here's to a change of luck, then.
ReplyDelete:-)