Sunday, 31 October 2010

Oh Lordy

By the looks of it I am now in need of a new place to live.
I've had it with my grandparents crap.
It's just not possible to live anywhere near them anymore, so I'm getting my ass out of here before Christmas.
Not sure where and how, but I have to pull it off.

Other than that, there's not much going on in my life at the moment.
Trying to focus on things that matter and staying positive.

Happy Halloween people <3

Sunday, 24 October 2010

All grown up

I'm just sitting here looking at old and new pictures taken of me and I can't help but thinking:
''What the hell happened to me??''

I'm sure that some people can relate, but I thought I'd share a few pics that I found:

Age 6

Age 7

Age 17

Age 19

Age 20

                                                         Age 21
September 2010

Most recent picture


- Melissa

Tuesday, 12 October 2010


So I got a new phone last week, and now I've ordered another one.
It was totally not the plan, but I got a great deal.
I signed up for a 12 month plan and usually the phone itself would be more expensive if you add up the amout of money you pay monthly, so the fact that I got the phone for half the price with a contract is awesome.

This is my current Samsung E2550 and I absolutely love it.
Very simple and cute.

If you want to check the new phone out take a look at this cool video ^_^

I had an HTC S730 about 2 years ago and it was rather awesome.
Didnt like the windows mobile, though.
But I am excited to get the new one.


I have to jet.
Need to harvest my crap on farmville.
Yes, I've gotten hooked on the one thing I swore to stay away from.
I'm tragic!


- Melissa

Sunday, 10 October 2010

Blog Lovin

I've never been a huge reader of blogs, but there's a few that have caught my attention.
My favorite blog!
A norwegian blogger who shares her passion for fashion, makeup and accessories.
DulceCandy from Youtube!
Her blog is amazing.
I'm not anti reading, but I do love blogs with a lot of pictures.
She obviously knows how to use a proper camera and it really shows.
Good quality pictures.
She writes about fashion, makeup, accessories and even food.
Another makeup and fashion blog.
Jordy is a Australian blogger who writes informative posts about things she likes.
She also has a youtubechannel with the same name.
A British man who became famous when his wife started to blog his night ramblings online.

Sunday, 3 October 2010

Give me a sign please?

I am in a really wierd state right now. Just felt like writing down my thoughts before I head to bed, because I know I would be tossing and turning all night if I dont get this out.

I'm close to making the biggest decision of my life and I've never been more insecure.
Not to mention scared.
I feel like in a way this is all too good to be true.
A dream, that's going to vanish the soon as I open my eyes.
I mean, I've never gotten what I want in life.
Not a single thing.
Why would I start getting my way now?
It's like something is telling me that I should just stop hoping for something that doesn't excist.
Something that won't ever excist.
I always had a tiny feeling I would never get my happy ending.
I might sound crazy, but this is just how I see it and how I feel.
People always say that the heart is stronger than the mind, but right now, my mind is tearing down my heart.
I've tried for weeks to convince myself that it's finally my time to be happy, my time to be something.. Somebody..
Maybe even with somebody.
But how can I be with someone if I can't trust anyone?
Trust has been, and will most likely, always be something I'll struggle with.
I know I should be more openminded, but I've had the worst year (with only a few good moments) of my life.
I've had my heart broken twice, lost a very close friend, tried to end my life twice and fallen in love again.
The last one, I actually feel guilty for.
I wasn't going to fall for anyone while I was still recovering from everything that nearly killed me and now I'm once again lost.

What am I going to do?
I really just need a sign.
A sign that everything is going to be okay.
Is that too much to ask?

I really don't want you to think that I've completely lost it, cause I haven't, but I just needed to get this out.

Thank you for taking the time to read this!
If you actually read the whole thing.


- Melissa