Friday, 25 June 2010


Sounds very gross and that's exactly what my night was like.
I got sick last night, for some wierd and unknown reason, and I rarely get sick.
So when I get sick, I really feel like ass.

Spent my day sleeping, watching movies and forced myself to do a vlog today.
Got like 5 days left on my vlog challenge and I know fo shizzle that I will never do a challenge like this again.
I now have a new respect for all of you daily vloggers out there.

And one thing is that my life is way too boring to be vlogging everyday right now.
I mean, if I had cute kids like Shay Carl or awesome dogs and a fiance like Charles Trippy, I'd be vlogging everyday too.


I'm now off to upload my new vlog for today.

Tatas peeps <33


- Melissa

Sunday, 20 June 2010

Where's Yo baby?

That's exactly what my grandma sounds like.
She started when I was 17 and now when I'm close to 22 she's still going strong.
I mean, just because my grandma and my mum had kids when they were 19 doesn't mean that I will too.
My mum knows that I don't want kids and why, but my grandma doesn't understand it.
She can be so thick sometimes, and not just when it comes to the babyissue.
She's also nagging about when/if I get married what my husband would feel about that.
And that's when I always look at her and tell her that if we get married, the babyissue is already solved, and second of all what makes you so sure I'll marry a guy?
My orientation haven't sunk in yet, and I' guessing it wont any time soon.
It's funny, because she's ''okay'' with gay people as long as they aren't someone in the family.
Which in my mind means that she's not okay with them.
And that reminds me:
She's the aunt to one of the gayest guys I've ever met.
And she never appears to have any issues with him.
So yeah, she's a bit of a wierdo.

But back to the babies...

I get asked all the time why I don't want kids, and the answer is simple, but many people still don't understand why.
I guess they are too caught up with the fact that it's the ''normal'' to to want and get when you grow up, but there's so many people that aren't fitted parents.
I'm not a bad person, but I'm too selfish and too fond of my freedom to ''ruin'' it with kids.
I've always said that I'd have animals instead and I have a cat right now, so she's my little kid.
So much easier to deal with.
I have been working with kids and I love it.
It's so rewarding, but I also got it confirmed that I will never have kids of my own.

So I have this answers some of your questions that I have been getting for a little while now.

I better jet..

See you all laters <3


- Melissa

Monday, 7 June 2010

More active than myspace?

Oh yeah sure.
At least that's what I said when I started this blog.
But meh!
I use twitter, facebook and youtube daily, so I really don't want to blog all the time :)

But anyways:

I took on the challenge to vlog everyday of this month, and so far I have uploaded daily as promised.
I can't imagine getting through it if I didnt have a topic everyday.
Like Myles Dyer.
He did the sixty second september challenge last year, and he even said that he was struggling to come up with things to do/talk about everyday.
So props for him making awesome vids everyday.
I'm trying to not be too boring, so bare with me people :)

In other news:

I am already starting to think about what to pack for my trip to Brentwood next month.
I'm flying with Norwegian this time (hence cheap ticket) and they are a total nightmare when it comes to baggage and how many kilos you can have.
SAS is so much better to deal with and both times I checked in my baggage I had like 5 kilos overweight.
I thought that I at least had to pay for it, but nope.
Because I checked in early and because SAS is nicer, I didnt have to, so I saved about £60.
Which is AWESOME!

But now I'm starting to rant so I'm going to wrap this up.

Getting a headache from rocking out to bluegrass, country and horrible pop songs, so I'm going to have a shower and head to bed.

Tatas xx

- Melissa

Tuesday, 1 June 2010

Some explaining, eh?

After my last status update on facebook, which sounds like this:

''Don't really know what to believe. I don't wanna assume that everyone's an ass, but in my experience, they all end up hurting me. Am I an idiot for just giving up? I just can't take more lies.''

Now, I've got a bunch of messages after I posted this and it's so good to see that people actually care.
It's kind of hard explaining the entire story behind it, but lets just say that it would take a year to explain.

But basically, everytime I let myself fall for someone, I end up getting hurt.
And I know that it happens.
People get hurt all the time, but to be honest, I'm kind of sick watching all of my friends move forward with their lives and I'm stuck in the same place.
All of my bestfriends are engaged, and the rest are in relationships, so I'm always the third wheel.
Of course I want my friends to be happy, but I want to be happy too.
Get me?

It's frustrating, when it's all I think about.
Everytime I'm in town, I get happy couples shoved in my face and I constantly get asked if I'm seeing someone.
Even my mum always asks if there's someone special.
She doesnt even know how much I hate that subject, because we never talk about these things.
I know I can talk to her about everything, but when it comes to love and sex?

But over to the mainpoint!
Last time I fell for someone, I fell hard, I even promised myself I wouldn't fall for his crap, but I did and it nearly killed me.
I know that this sound so far out and sad, but I just had to get it off my chest.
I can't always write happy thought and be all goofy and funny.
We all have experienced things that makes us rethink certain things and I'm to the point where I don't care anymore.
And I'm not saying that as a stubborn teen (even though I'm technically not a teen anymore), but as young adult with a lot of bad exeriences.

So what happens next?
Who knows!

But I really do appreciate the people who sent me awesome messages :)
You guys are great!


- Melissa