Monday, 27 December 2010

Christmas 2010

Christmas is almost over and I have a very chilled and relaxing xmas this year.
Last year was absolutely dreadful for a number of reasons, so it was nice to be able to enjoy it this time around.
I uploaded a Christmas vlog and if you haven't seen it I'll put it up here.



Now I'm just waiting around for new years.
Even though I know it's going to be a rough year, I hope it's all going to be worth it.
I've got so much on my plate right now and I honestly don't know how to deal with everything or where to start.
Maybe I should write a list or something.
For some wierd reason that always gets my mind organized.

Anyways:
I have a lot of cleaning to do, so I have to jet.

Talk to you guys later :)

xx

- Melissa

Monday, 20 December 2010

Oh hi!

Been a long time now.
Sad news:
My camera broke, so I'm not really able to take any pictures.
I have my crap ass cellphone camera, but it's not the same.
Anyways, I need to get my hands on a new one after Christmas.

Speaking of christmas, though.
Christmas is less than 5 days away.
This year has been a crazy rollercoaster and I really have no idea how the year could pass so quickly.
I'll post a longer post closer to new years eve.

Have a fantastic week you guys <3

xx

- Melissa

Tuesday, 30 November 2010

Shouldn't be allowed!

I was told at work today that I'm pretty much forced to work now everyday, even though I'm packed with a cold and barely any voice at all..
If I don't show up for work, I can just forget about coming back.
That honestly blew me away.
Now, I have no choice but to show up, because I don't want another crappy christmas like last year.
Long story, btw.

Anywho:

I'm going to remove my makeup and nailpolish, put on a lovely facial mask and take a hot bath.

Hope you guys are having a better day than I am.

xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 21 November 2010

Tiny update!

So it's been two weeks since my last post and I'm sorry for the few people who actually read my blog.
I started working fulltime last week, so I work monday through friday.
I get up at 6 am and I'm dead around 6 pm.
Not strange at all since I now work in a kindergarden.

But anyways:

As usual I have at least 50 things on my mind and I have no idea how to handle it all.
For some reason, I feel like I'm back in a relationship with my ex.
The distance, the frustration and the insecurity is bugging me everyday.
It's like I have someone, but at the same time I don't.
I'm just not in a position where I can be alone.
It's a bit dangerous.
Mentally, I mean.

But making videos helps a bit.
I posted this yesterday and I've gotten a few messages about it.
Apparently, a lot of people liked it and that makes me happy ^_^


But I guess I should head to bed.
Gotta get up in 6 1/2 hours :(

Nighty night people <3

xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 7 November 2010

What is it about sundays?

I've noticed a very wierd pattern lately.
The last blog posts are all posted on sundays.
Is sunday a blog day or is that just random?
I don't know, but whatever.

I am however excited about my Nintendo DS and my two Mario games that's on the way to my mailbox.
I got the new Mario Bros game and that new version of the mario 64 game from the nintendo 64 days.
Awesome stuff!
Good old times :)
I've had so much fun with the Nintendo 64 game so of course I had to get this too.


I wanted a pink one, but that was sold out so I had to go for the white one.
Still pretty :)

Anywhoooo:
I have to go to town tomorrow morning for a short meeting, so I guess I have to head to bed now.
Nighty night people xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 31 October 2010

Oh Lordy

By the looks of it I am now in need of a new place to live.
I've had it with my grandparents crap.
It's just not possible to live anywhere near them anymore, so I'm getting my ass out of here before Christmas.
Not sure where and how, but I have to pull it off.

Other than that, there's not much going on in my life at the moment.
Trying to focus on things that matter and staying positive.

Happy Halloween people <3

Sunday, 24 October 2010

All grown up

I'm just sitting here looking at old and new pictures taken of me and I can't help but thinking:
''What the hell happened to me??''

I'm sure that some people can relate, but I thought I'd share a few pics that I found:

Age 6

Age 7

Age 17

Age 19

Age 20


                                                         Age 21
                
September 2010

Most recent picture

xx

- Melissa

Tuesday, 12 October 2010

Smart?

So I got a new phone last week, and now I've ordered another one.
It was totally not the plan, but I got a great deal.
I signed up for a 12 month plan and usually the phone itself would be more expensive if you add up the amout of money you pay monthly, so the fact that I got the phone for half the price with a contract is awesome.

This is my current Samsung E2550 and I absolutely love it.
Very simple and cute.

If you want to check the new phone out take a look at this cool video ^_^

I had an HTC S730 about 2 years ago and it was rather awesome.
Didnt like the windows mobile, though.
But I am excited to get the new one.

Anyways:

I have to jet.
Need to harvest my crap on farmville.
Yes, I've gotten hooked on the one thing I swore to stay away from.
I'm tragic!

xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 10 October 2010

Blog Lovin

I've never been a huge reader of blogs, but there's a few that have caught my attention.

http://styledevil.com/
My favorite blog!
A norwegian blogger who shares her passion for fashion, makeup and accessories.

http://www.bloglovin.com/m/aHR0cCUzQSUyRiUyRmR1bGNlY2FuZHk4Ny5ibG9nc3BvdC5jb20lMkY
DulceCandy from Youtube!
Her blog is amazing.
I'm not anti reading, but I do love blogs with a lot of pictures.
She obviously knows how to use a proper camera and it really shows.
Good quality pictures.
She writes about fashion, makeup, accessories and even food.

http://jordysbeautyspot.blogspot.com/
Another makeup and fashion blog.
Jordy is a Australian blogger who writes informative posts about things she likes.
She also has a youtubechannel with the same name.

http://sleeptalkinman.blogspot.com/
A British man who became famous when his wife started to blog his night ramblings online.

Sunday, 3 October 2010

Give me a sign please?

I am in a really wierd state right now. Just felt like writing down my thoughts before I head to bed, because I know I would be tossing and turning all night if I dont get this out.

I'm close to making the biggest decision of my life and I've never been more insecure.
Not to mention scared.
I feel like in a way this is all too good to be true.
A dream, that's going to vanish the soon as I open my eyes.
I mean, I've never gotten what I want in life.
Not a single thing.
Why would I start getting my way now?
It's like something is telling me that I should just stop hoping for something that doesn't excist.
Something that won't ever excist.
I always had a tiny feeling I would never get my happy ending.
I might sound crazy, but this is just how I see it and how I feel.
People always say that the heart is stronger than the mind, but right now, my mind is tearing down my heart.
I've tried for weeks to convince myself that it's finally my time to be happy, my time to be something.. Somebody..
Maybe even with somebody.
But how can I be with someone if I can't trust anyone?
Trust has been, and will most likely, always be something I'll struggle with.
I know I should be more openminded, but I've had the worst year (with only a few good moments) of my life.
I've had my heart broken twice, lost a very close friend, tried to end my life twice and fallen in love again.
The last one, I actually feel guilty for.
I wasn't going to fall for anyone while I was still recovering from everything that nearly killed me and now I'm once again lost.

What am I going to do?
I really just need a sign.
A sign that everything is going to be okay.
Is that too much to ask?

I really don't want you to think that I've completely lost it, cause I haven't, but I just needed to get this out.

Thank you for taking the time to read this!
If you actually read the whole thing.

xx

- Melissa

Thursday, 30 September 2010

Makeup trends of Fall 2010

I was curious to see what kind of makeup trends the fall has in store for us, so I had a quick look at one of my favorite fashion sites to find out.

Here's the link:

The two most important trends are red lipstick and dramatic eyeliner.
I don't really wear red lipstick and I rarely do dramatic eyeliner looks, but I do love this lipstick from Dior:
I bought it last year for some reason I cannot remember, but I really do like it.
Sadly, I can't remember how much I paid for it, but Dior is a bit on the expensive side.

As for eyeliners, I really want to try the Bobbi Brown gel liners because I've heard nothing but good things about that product.

I don't believe that I can get this in my town so I'd have to order online, which I haven't gotten around to do.
So even though I haven't tried this gel liner, I would still recommend it if you want to try the dramatic eyeliner look.

xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 26 September 2010

The Hot List

One of the few things that puts me in a better mood when I'm feeling a bit down is fashion and makeup.
So I decided to take a look at ''The Hot List'' on http://www.fashionmagazine.com/

Striped sombreros at Prada Spring 2011. Photography by Peter Stigter


I don't want to ''steal'' the entire article, so feel free to check out this link:
 http://www.fashionmagazine.com/blogs/tag/the-hot-list/
 
Personally, I'm not a fan of what Spring of 2011 has to offer, only because I'm swearing to the rock and punkish look with a girly twist.
That's how I would explain my own style.
 
Anyways, I have to jet.
Have an awesome sunday, guys!
 
xx
 
- Melissa

Sunday, 19 September 2010

Oslo baby!

We're having a lazy sunday here in H√łnefoss/Oslo.
My bff is doing some school assignment and his bf is doing some other type work thing.
I'm just sitting here surfing online catching up on recent events.
Not much going on this weekend, though.

Yesterday, we were looking around town doing some shopping and later in the evening we went with some friends to the bowling alley.
Pizza, buzz on PS and inside jokes were to follow after that.
All in all a good saturday night.

Today, there's a bloody soccer game on TV, so that means that my friend is going to be busy for a few hours.
I honestly don't get the fuzz, but he loves it.
Apart from that I don't really think we have any plans today.
Making tacos later, though.

Tomorrow, we're taking the bus into Oslo city to do some more shopping.
I will drop by mac and check out what the big thing is about those makeup products, even though I know I can't afford to buy a lot.

Anyways:

I'll get off here and do some reading.

Tatas xx

 - Melissa

Tuesday, 14 September 2010

Weekend Trip!

So I am going to Oslo to visit my bestfriend this weekend.
I'm staying with him and his boyfriend and I'm so excited.
I've never been in Oslo (except the airport), so this is new.
Only going to be there from Friday and then I leave early Tuesday morning.
That will give us good time to hang out and from my friend to give me a tour of that bloody town.
Can you tell I'm a big fan of Oslo?
I know I shouldn't judge a town without even have seen it, but I honestly know that I won't like it.
Now London, on the other hand, I love... With every inch of my body...
Gorgeous city and a bunch of beautiful brits.
In Oslo you only get a bunch of stuck up, snobby aholes..

But anyways:

There will be pics to follow so stay tuned pretty people <3

xx

- Melissa

Wednesday, 8 September 2010

I'm happy!

So yeah...
People have been wanting an update on how everything went with Wayne.
For those who have me on facebook have already seen something change.
Lets just say that I had to change my status ;)

Here's a picture of us that was taken last wednesday:

I had just been at the hairdressers after I randomly decided to get a haircut.
Must say I'm pleased with it.
Wayne looks a bit cheeky, though.


Anyways:

We have A LOT to talk about now, cause long distance relationships never really work in the long run.
As of now, it looks like I'll be moving to California next year.
Which is gonna suck cowballs because I have to bring my cat and I hate the warm weather.
But I know it's worth it, and I need an excuse to get out of this shithole called my hometown.

So yeah, that's it for now.
Have to get back to editing my next Random Thursday video for tomorrow :)

See ya guys laterz xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 29 August 2010

1 more day

Now I'm starting to get VERY nervous.
In under 24 hours I'll be picking up Wayne at the airport in Narvik and honestly, I really don't know what to expect.
It's not that I'm worried, but I don't know how to react when I see him.
Maybe it's just the nerves talking, cause I always get a gut feeling if something's not right.
And I'm not getting any ''signs'' that there might be anything to worry about.

Anyways:
Nothing much has happened this week.
Just been watching 3 season of True Blood in like 5-6 days.
I've been that bored, that I decided to watch a show I swore never to watch.
It wasnt that bad, but it wasnt that exciting either.

But now I realized that I still have some crap I have to do.
Talk to you guys laters..

xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 22 August 2010

TWiT overload

I just checked my iTunes and apparently I haven't been listening to podcasts for forever and 5 days.
So, now I'm trying to catch up on about 30 different podcasts that has been building up over the past month.
If you don't know what TWiT is, that's short for This Week in Tech and it's hosted by Leo Laporte.
He's actually the reason why I'm on twitter and the reason why I'm so addicted.

Been listening to his shows for almost 2 years now and I swear on my iphone that if he wasnt over 50, married and had kids, I'd totally go after him.. lol
He's brilliant and has one of the best radio voices I've ever heard.
Each podcast is almost an hour and a half long, but it's so entertaining that the time fly by quickly.

Something that I find cool is that they now have This Week in Fun, This Week in Law and other type of shows that talks about certain subjects.

Anyways:

I'm playing games on meez.com while listening to TWiT #258.
Got 3 more podcasts to listen to, so I'm happy that I don't have much left.
But I think I have to stop playing and get around to clean up a bit in my place.
And I should also clean the litterbox, which I'm always excited about.
Can you smell the sarcasm?
(I smell something, allright!)

xx

- Melissa

Thursday, 19 August 2010

On my wishlist

I am looking at a bunch of things online that I REALLY want, but obviously can't afford.
I did, on the other hand, order a new pair of boots the other day.

I've been drooling over these for the last 3-4 weeks, so when I got a mail saying that I could pick an item and get 50% off, I was going crazy.
So I'll get these babies in the mail within a week.
(Damn, I'm gonna be close to 6'2 in these)

I am slightly ashamed that I'm drooling over this next item, though.


A leather jacket.
And the pricetag is £384 or 616 dollars, which isnt horrible, but its real leather and I dont wear that or fur.
Doesnt matter either way, because I could never afford a 384 pound jacket.

And the last thing I want:

The only reason I chose this over a nintendo ds is because I can get a tekken game on the psp.
Yes, I'm a HUGE tekken fan >_<

So that's what's on my wish/droolinglist right now.
I gotta go and let Anna out.
She's been staring at the kitchenwindow for hours now.

Byes xx

- Melissa

Tuesday, 17 August 2010

Now what?

On Sunday night, after my shift, my boss called me into his office and told me that this was my last day there.
Everything just fell apart.
And now I'm back to square 1.
I wanted to hit my boss right in the face, but obviously I couldn't do that.
So after only 3 weeks of working there, I'm now out on my ass and have to look for another job, which is going to be a total bitch.

I don't even know how to describe it, but it's kind of dangerous when things like this happens to me.
I feel completely useless, insecure and slightly depressed.
I mean, how hard can it be to get AND keep a bloody job?
I'm starting to lose all faith in my own ability to work.
But all I can do now is to keep looking and hope that something will come up very soon.

I'll see you pretty people around.

xx

- Melissa

Wednesday, 11 August 2010

Where did it go?


And by that I mean the time.
Seems like the days are passing too quick for me to even notice these days.
But again, I can't really complain.
On my way to work now but I have so days off this week, so I'm going to focus on getting my shit together.
If you don't know me personally, it means that I have a lot going on in my life and my main priority right now is to get an apartment in the city.
I'm basically living in a one room basement apartment in the same house as my mum and my nosey ass grandparents.
The new version of the addams family, anyone?
So yeah, I need to leave this house and get not only my own place, but a bigger place.

Anyways:

I'm blogging from my iphone right now, so I trying to make it a quick one.
Don't wanna miss my bus to work.
Done that before, But I can't really afford taking a cab.

So I have to jet.
See you all around xx

- Melissa

Monday, 2 August 2010

I'm a busy bee

So yeah, I've been working a lot since I got back from Brentwood and I haven't really had time to do certain things, but to be honest, I can't complain.
Been unemployed for 7 months, so I'm excited to finally have a job :)
It is, on the other hand, A LOT of work.
Who knew being a receptionist is this much work?
I sure as hell didn't.
Last week was a complete nightmare because I was basically on trial.
I was having major issues with learning the booking system on the computer, and I swear I felt like the biggest asshole because I couldn't figure the system out.
But I finally managed to do everything on my own when I was alone at work on Saturday and I was so proud of myself..
LOL!

Anyways:

I'm off now for a few days and I'll be working Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
Going to be a rough weekend.
What I can do to put myself in a better mood is to look at these pictures:



I fell completely in love with that orangutan.
He was soooo gorgeous and those eyes were amazing!
To bad I didn't get a good picture.
That one was taken by Mel, I believe.

Then there was Bailey, the male lion at Colechester Zoo..
Needless to say that I was over the moon to be standing 1 meter away from him.
Absolutely beautiful <3

The last one was taken at The Swan in Brentwood on my birthday.
From the left: Dan, me, Paul, Stuart and Nick.
Mel was taking this picture as well ^_^

So I'm gonna head to bed before I fall asleep in front of my computer, which in fact has happened before.
(No comment on that one, by the way).

Talk to you lovely people laters <3

xx

- Melissa

Friday, 23 July 2010

Back from Brentwood!!!

Afternoon sexy people!
So I'm back home now.
Got back around 7 pm last night and I was completely dead.
Had been up since 4 am and the airports, people, screaming babies and annoying danish people never seemed to go away.
So you can only imagine how glad I was go come home.

I have a ton of video clips to put together and upload to youtube.
I'll do as much as I can this weekend, but I just got a phonecall from the hotel that I have to work a few hours tomorrow.
I dont really want to, but I'm in no position to turn it down.
So I guess, I'm up at 7 am tomorrow morning.
That's just cruel!

Have to head to bed now if there will be a chance for me to get up that early.

Goodnight!

xx

- Melissa

Monday, 12 July 2010

Hello England


I am now off to Brentwood/London for 10 days.
Soooooo excited!
Won't be online so I'm in for a much needed Internet vacation.
I will be editing a few vlogs while I'm there so stay tuned for that.

Anyways:

I gotta jet.

Tatas xx

- Melissa

Tuesday, 6 July 2010

Love? My Ass!

I'm have a lot on my mind these days and sometimes things makes better sense when I write it down, so I'm hoping this will help.
No need to hide this or try make it sound less mad, but I'm kind of a retard when it comes to love.
Meaning, I block everyhing that makes me fall for someone or even just something that is a bit more than just flirting.
Yeah, I sound slightly crazy, but as aways, I have a good reason.

As most of my friends know, I've been nothing but hurt when it comes to relationships and love, so I guess in my own wierd way I'm protecting myself from being hurt again.
People might say I'm closeminded for being like this and that I should give love a chance.
But I know that everyone who has been hurt knows exactly what I'm talking about.
I'm not kidding when I say that it nearly killed me last time.

And yes, I know that sounds dramatic, but when you've been struggeling with deep depression for years, it doesn't take much to end up like that again.
No, I'm not writing this to get attention.
This is how it is and I'm just being honest.

But anyways...

It's not always easy seeing all of my friends being in relationships, a few of them are even engaged, and I'm always the tag-along when we meet.
I have a lot of online friends and the friends I have in real life doesn't really know me as well as my Internet friends do.
Yes, most of you would say something like this:
''That's so tragic that you don't talk to your real friends about stuff.''
I guess it is, but they don't share either.

None of my friends are a geek like me and are into youtube, blogging or other nerdy things.
I mean, they have facebook and all, but that's pretty much it.
Hence why I hide my youtube from my real friends.
Or at least I try to hide it.
No idea if they watch my videos or not.
Mum knows I'm a vlogger, and at first she thought that I was doing live sex shows or something.
This is what happens when you have a parent that are clueless about the Internet.
All she knows about it is the negative things she hears about on TV.

But this blog just went overboard.

But I think you get the idea of why I'm so anti love.
I know I might miss out, but the thought of being hurt again just makes me want to jump off a cliff or something.

If you read this entire post I adore you, but it was mostly for me getting some crap out.

xx

- Melissa

Monday, 5 July 2010

Ooooo Guuuurl

Just got home from town after a meeting.
Was looking around the mall for birthday presents for two English cupcakes.
Found three things, but I need to get another one, so I'll go back later in the week.
Anyways, while I was in the bathroom checking my makeup (too hot outside for makeup) I turned around and decided to just take a random picture.
I rarely wear my boots and when I do I want to prove that I actually wear them.
I'm tall to begin with, so I'm like a monster in these:


Bad hairday, so that's why I just put up my hair like that so I didn't have to deal with it.

But yeah, I'm off to have a little nap.
I've only slept like 6 hours the last two days, so I'm a roadkill right now.

Tatas xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 4 July 2010

Double Down Disgusting

What is is with KFC and all of these fastfood joints and their disgusting meals?
The double down from KFC is apparently so disgusting that there are videos all over youtube of people just trying to eat it.


This is what it says about the double down on KFC's website:

''The new KFC Double Down sandwich is real! This one-of-a-kind sandwich features two thick and juicy boneless white meat chicken filets (Original Recipe® or Grilled), two pieces of bacon, two melted slices of Monterey Jack and pepper jack cheese and Colonel's Sauce. This product is so meaty, there’s no room for a bun!''

Hmmmm!
I don't know about you, but I would love to try this.
For some wierd reason, the food that looks absolutely disgusting turns out to be the best food ever.
Maybe I'll give it a go in England?
Who knows?

But here's my question to you:
What's the most disgusting meal you've ever had?
Comment, tweet or mail me :)

xx

- Melissa

Friday, 25 June 2010

Puke-a-thon?

Sounds very gross and that's exactly what my night was like.
I got sick last night, for some wierd and unknown reason, and I rarely get sick.
So when I get sick, I really feel like ass.

Spent my day sleeping, watching movies and forced myself to do a vlog today.
Got like 5 days left on my vlog challenge and I know fo shizzle that I will never do a challenge like this again.
I now have a new respect for all of you daily vloggers out there.

And one thing is that my life is way too boring to be vlogging everyday right now.
I mean, if I had cute kids like Shay Carl or awesome dogs and a fiance like Charles Trippy, I'd be vlogging everyday too.

Anyways:

I'm now off to upload my new vlog for today.

Tatas peeps <33

xx

- Melissa

Sunday, 20 June 2010

Where's Yo baby?

That's exactly what my grandma sounds like.
She started when I was 17 and now when I'm close to 22 she's still going strong.
I mean, just because my grandma and my mum had kids when they were 19 doesn't mean that I will too.
My mum knows that I don't want kids and why, but my grandma doesn't understand it.
She can be so thick sometimes, and not just when it comes to the babyissue.
She's also nagging about when/if I get married what my husband would feel about that.
And that's when I always look at her and tell her that if we get married, the babyissue is already solved, and second of all what makes you so sure I'll marry a guy?
My orientation haven't sunk in yet, and I' guessing it wont any time soon.
It's funny, because she's ''okay'' with gay people as long as they aren't someone in the family.
Which in my mind means that she's not okay with them.
And that reminds me:
She's the aunt to one of the gayest guys I've ever met.
And she never appears to have any issues with him.
So yeah, she's a bit of a wierdo.

But back to the babies...

I get asked all the time why I don't want kids, and the answer is simple, but many people still don't understand why.
I guess they are too caught up with the fact that it's the ''normal'' to to want and get when you grow up, but there's so many people that aren't fitted parents.
I'm not a bad person, but I'm too selfish and too fond of my freedom to ''ruin'' it with kids.
I've always said that I'd have animals instead and I have a cat right now, so she's my little kid.
So much easier to deal with.
I have been working with kids and I love it.
It's so rewarding, but I also got it confirmed that I will never have kids of my own.

So I have this answers some of your questions that I have been getting for a little while now.

I better jet..

See you all laters <3

xx

- Melissa

Monday, 7 June 2010

More active than myspace?

Oh yeah sure.
At least that's what I said when I started this blog.
But meh!
I use twitter, facebook and youtube daily, so I really don't want to blog all the time :)

But anyways:

I took on the challenge to vlog everyday of this month, and so far I have uploaded daily as promised.
I can't imagine getting through it if I didnt have a topic everyday.
Like Myles Dyer.
He did the sixty second september challenge last year, and he even said that he was struggling to come up with things to do/talk about everyday.
So props for him making awesome vids everyday.
I'm trying to not be too boring, so bare with me people :)

In other news:

I am already starting to think about what to pack for my trip to Brentwood next month.
I'm flying with Norwegian this time (hence cheap ticket) and they are a total nightmare when it comes to baggage and how many kilos you can have.
SAS is so much better to deal with and both times I checked in my baggage I had like 5 kilos overweight.
I thought that I at least had to pay for it, but nope.
Because I checked in early and because SAS is nicer, I didnt have to, so I saved about £60.
Which is AWESOME!

But now I'm starting to rant so I'm going to wrap this up.

Getting a headache from rocking out to bluegrass, country and horrible pop songs, so I'm going to have a shower and head to bed.

Tatas xx

- Melissa

Tuesday, 1 June 2010

Some explaining, eh?

After my last status update on facebook, which sounds like this:

''Don't really know what to believe. I don't wanna assume that everyone's an ass, but in my experience, they all end up hurting me. Am I an idiot for just giving up? I just can't take more lies.''

Now, I've got a bunch of messages after I posted this and it's so good to see that people actually care.
It's kind of hard explaining the entire story behind it, but lets just say that it would take a year to explain.

But basically, everytime I let myself fall for someone, I end up getting hurt.
And I know that it happens.
People get hurt all the time, but to be honest, I'm kind of sick watching all of my friends move forward with their lives and I'm stuck in the same place.
All of my bestfriends are engaged, and the rest are in relationships, so I'm always the third wheel.
Of course I want my friends to be happy, but I want to be happy too.
Get me?

It's frustrating, when it's all I think about.
Everytime I'm in town, I get happy couples shoved in my face and I constantly get asked if I'm seeing someone.
Even my mum always asks if there's someone special.
She doesnt even know how much I hate that subject, because we never talk about these things.
I know I can talk to her about everything, but when it comes to love and sex?
PASS!

But over to the mainpoint!
Last time I fell for someone, I fell hard, I even promised myself I wouldn't fall for his crap, but I did and it nearly killed me.
I know that this sound so far out and sad, but I just had to get it off my chest.
I can't always write happy thought and be all goofy and funny.
We all have experienced things that makes us rethink certain things and I'm to the point where I don't care anymore.
And I'm not saying that as a stubborn teen (even though I'm technically not a teen anymore), but as young adult with a lot of bad exeriences.

So what happens next?
Who knows!

But I really do appreciate the people who sent me awesome messages :)
You guys are great!

xx

- Melissa

Tuesday, 25 May 2010

I got kicked out

I was at H&M today to take a look at the spring season clothing line.
Since I don't have the ability to explain things, so I wanted to take some pictures to show you guys.
Now, I wasn't planning on whipping out my digitalcamera, cause that would have just been too much.
So I tried to take some pics on my iphone, but a woman who worked there busted me and thought I was a ''spy'' or something.
Wierdo!
I just told her that I wanted some pics for my blog.
I just decided to leave the store before some serious drama would go down in the store.
But here's the pics I did manage to get.

This is a rockish looking purse with tiny studs around the buttom.
Its perfect for a night out, because its not too small or too big.
You can also over your shoulder so you don't have to carry it in your hands, which is nice.
The price on this purse is 149 NOK, which is about £15.
I am so going to buy this beauty soon.
When it comes to shoes this spring/summer, it's all about gladiator sandals and ballerina shoes with and without an open toe.
I didn't look at the price on these, but I assume they are about 100 - 150 NOK.
So up to £15.
And I know that for all of the lovely Brits out there, that this might be expensive, because you can find nicer shoes for a cheaper price.
All I can say is: Welcome to Norway!

But I did find some shoes that literally scared the living crap out of me.
Brace yourself!

Uhm...
Who would buy those?
I wouldn't get those even if I was blinde.
But that's just me.
LOL!







As you can tell, I only got a few shots of shoes.
Those orange pumps makes my tummy growl.
Not really an attractive colour.
But other than that, they are simple, cool and stylin'.




Then I came across this thing.
This is always when I got caught taking the pictures.
What caugt my eye was the fancy colour.
Apparently, this is some hair accessories.
Would be kinda fun to try this, even though I might fail completely.



After leaving H&M, I went to the store next door which is Lindex.
Just had to check if they had gotten something new in the makeup department.
And hells yeah, they had something new.

I was afraid that they might stop selling Lumene, but holy hell.
They just got a whole new collection of makeup.
I was so excited, I nearly shouted out loud.
I know where I'm going when I get paid.

And Dan, if you're reading this:I'm not gonna spend a shitload of money xD
Just had to get that out there.
I just have to get a few things.
LOL!


Well, this post was longer than I thought it would be, so I better wrap it up now.
Gotta jet peeps.

Lova ya long time <3

xx

- Melissa

Saturday, 22 May 2010

Appropriate much?


What went through the designer's head when they made this so called "toy"?
That's what I want to know.
This isn't the only inappropriate toy I've seen and I laugh my ass off everytime I see stuff like this.

So the question of the day is:
What's the "worse" kid's toy you've ever seen?

xx

- Melissa

Thursday, 13 May 2010

No sleep in ages music

I don't know about you but I change my playlist on my iTunes when I've been awake for a certain amount of time.
Usually goes from the typical old school punk, hardrock, metal and some pop/indie tunes to lame catchy ass bubblegum pop like Aqua and Vengaboys and not to mention boybands and other disturbing 70's and 80's music that very few people would admit to listening to.
Right now I've been singing out loud to Donna Summer, Westlife, Kenny Loggins, Pokemon themes and Miley Cyrus.
Don't kill me for the last one.
She's bloody catchy late at night.

OMG!
I remember when ''Barbie Girl'' came out.
My gay bestfriend loved it and he used to dance around the street listening to that song.
Just thinking about it makes me laugh because that mental picture of him goofing about the street is just insane.

And another popular band I love listening to when I'm loopy is Spice Girls.
Don't tell me they're lame cause I will hunt you down.

But its almost midnight now and if I'm going to have a chance to get up fairly early tomorrow, I'd better head to bed.

Have a good night or maybe day, depending on where you are in the world ^_^
Bye bye!

xx

- Melissa

Saturday, 8 May 2010

Buying my future?

It's not what it sounds like.
I have been, for the past few days, really been thinking about buying a Macbook.
The problem is that I don't know if I can afford one.
But I really REALLY want one.

Look at this sexy little thing ^_^
This is the cheapest one in the Apple store and I really don't wanna get a more expensive one
since this would be my first mac.
I already have 2 ipods and one iphone, so it's about I'd get an Apple laptop.
I definitely have to think about it, because I don't wanna fall in a hole with buying something I can't afford.

I don't know.
Am I overdoing it by getting a new laptop?
This is my current computer:


I've had it for almost 2 years now and I've never been more pleased about any computer I've ever had.
And I've had like 2 IBMs and 4 Dells.
By the way: NEVER get a Dell computer.
My harddrive crashed 5 times in 6 months.
Total nightmare.
Everytime I see a Dell ad I'm close to crying.
So that's just a tiny tip.

But over to the Macbook.
I was an inch away from pressing the order button just now and I really don't know how long I'll be able
to resist pushing that button.
Help!?!

xx

- Melissa

Monday, 3 May 2010

Pants on the ground?


Looking like a fool with your pants on the ground.
I don't know what was going through this dude's size 2 brain when he got dressed in the morning.
Let me make it clear:

You're not cool when you dress like this.
It just looks like you shit yourself or something.
In my town, you see a bunch of young teens sporting this "look" and it's completely ridicioulus.
I'm just saying, this is not a good fashion statement.

Any thoughts?

xx

- Melissa

Friday, 30 April 2010

Freak of nature?


I'm officially a bit scared right now.
I'm all about people being themselves and expressing who they are with fashion and stuff.
But this dude?
Are you for real?
I would have shit my pants if I met him on the street.
What makes a person want to look like this?
I mean, if he asked me out, I would say "No Fucking Way".
He's not getting any ladies with this look.
I'm just saying.

What do you think?

xx

- Melissa

Thursday, 29 April 2010

End Gay Hate


Even though this might be a dead-end, I'd still want to try to inspire, or even just get others to open their eyes, about this cause.
Imagine being scared to death to go to school or work because you're a bit different.
You shouldn't be judged for WHAT you are but for WHO you are!

So I tag you to write "End Gay Hate" on your hand or on a poster and put it on your blog, twitter or facebook and post the link to that pic to this blog post.

I have a feeling that no one will do it, but it's still worth a try :)

Anyways:

Almost one 1 am and I've been awake since 6.30 am yesterday.
Tiiiired!

Good night sexy people <3

xx

- Melissa

Wednesday, 21 April 2010

Packages are FUN!

Whoop whoop!
I've been waiting for this one for over 4 weeks, so I was very excited when I finally got it in the mail.
I ordered everything from Yves Rocher.

- The first thing is a minipack of 3 eyeshadows in different pink shades, a mascara and a lipgloss.
- Then the eyeshadow quartet from Yria, which I was so excited about.
I got £20 off it so that was a must have.
- After that, there's loose power in beige naturel from Luminelle.
- A black creamy eyeliner natural origin from Yves Rocher.
- Yria age repair nail nailpolish.
- Yria lipstick #401 beige sable.




God, I love makeup.
I was at my mums when I was unpacking and she was staring at me the whole time.
For some reason I was screaming out loud when I took these things out of the box.
I already knew what was in it, so why I was screaming, I have no idea.
I looked at my mum and she just sent me this ''You're so pathetic'' look and looked away.
She continued with '' I remember when you had that reaction when you got your xbox and nintendo 64, but screaming your ass off for makeup, really?''
She has a point though.

But I did try a new look yesterday with my Q31 Aquarius quartet.
I used two different aqua blue shades and the purple shadow as an eyelineron the lower lash line.

I do love this look, but people who ''know'' a lot about makeup says that if you have blue eyes you shouldn't wear blue eyeshadow, but I say: Whatever!
And yes, I'm aware that I look a bit ''off'' in this pic.
It was like 11 at night and I was tired.

Anywho:
I got so much paperwork to do and I hate it more than anything I can think of right now, so wish my luck.
I need coffee ASAP!

Love you guys

xx

- Melissa

Monday, 19 April 2010

Phamous?

Meh!
Just someone shouting at me while I was vlogging outside.
I'm from a small town where people aren't used to this kinda thing, so I can't really blame them.

http://twitvid.com/C8ATM

I had to make this little video on my iphone, because I just found the whole situation funny.

Anyways:
I'm now editing all of the clips I shot and oh man it's a lot of work.
But hopefully it'll be worth it.

xx

- Melissa

Thursday, 15 April 2010

Messy whatever and Ugly Betty

Sitting here looking at Anna sleeping on my lap and the mess on my desk, which never seems to go away no matter how much I clean and throw it away.
It keeps haunting me.



I was going to go out for a walk today, cause I'm so tired of sitting at home all the time, but the weather is so shitty I don't feel like it.
So I'll guess I have an excuse to clean up my desk, that I haven't seen in a few days.
I usually forget what my desk looks like if I haven't seen it in a while.
Does this ever happen to you or am I a hopeless case?
I don't even know.

1 hour break!

I have now been watching the last episode of Ugly Betty :(
The last episode EVER!
And I'm in a wierd mood.
Just posted a video on youtube about it.



Filmed it on my iPhone 3G so that's why the quality is a bit shabby.
Any ideas what to watch now?
Please don't say House.
Hahaha xD

xx

- Melissa

Monday, 12 April 2010

Do I really need more?

What do you think?

This is everything in my makeupbag (not counting brushes etc.).
I do have like 6 more things that I've ordered online, but that is it.


Here's my sexy makeupbag.
A hot pink Hello Kitty bag.
Don't hate!

I'm going to make a deal with myself that everytime I feel the urge to buy more makeup, I'll put aside what the cost of those possible items would cost to my other bank account where I save up money for another England trip.
It's going to be hard, but so worth it.
Imagine all the makeup I can buy down there?
So much cheaper there than it is here.
I know, it's ironic.
Saving up money, so I can buy more makeup in England.
Don't judge me!
I'm hopeless, I know.

Anyways:

If this actually works, I'll be back in England in no time.
I spent like £105 on makeup last time I went shopping and I need between £360 and £460 depending on when I book the flight.
Also need money to food, shopping and all that jazz when I'm there.
Let the saving torture begin!

xx

- Melissa

Friday, 9 April 2010

Old people are racist!

So I just had to make this video to get this off my chest.
As you can tell, I was a bit frustrated and angry about this particular subject, so it was awesome to get it out there.'
Feeling a lot better now, actually!
So feel free to watch it :)



xx

- Melissa

Wednesday, 7 April 2010

H&M Fashion Report

As I've said before I looooove H&M, but I'm really not feeling this trend that always seem to come back.
Brown, beige and earth colours.
I love the brown for makeup (also in season this year) but not for clothes.
That's just dull.
I say that colours are meant to be shown, not to blend in with boring nude colours.

Anyways:

Here's a video if you want to see it!



xx

- Melissa

Tuesday, 6 April 2010

Vicious circle and PhoenixFM Mafia

I started doing yoga in January, but for some reason I quit after a while, and now I haven't had a real workout session in about 2 months.
I've also started to gain the weight I lost.
Plus, I've been eating like crazy and been sitting on my ass for 2 months, so that doesn't really help either.
So from tomorrow on, I'll pick up where I left off.
Oh Lord, it's going to be tough.
I wasn't a yoga expert when I quit, so I know I got a lot of work in front of me.
As Vanda says: ''Oh dear!''

Even though this day was a bit shitty, something did cheer me up.



I got my Phoenixfm Mafia hoodie in the mail.
Whoop whoop!
Been wearing it all day and it's so comfortable.
It did cost me about £50 with shipping, so it was rather expensive, but so worth it.

Anyways...

I have to get up early tomorrow, so I better go to bed before I fall asleep standing up.
Yes, standing up!
I can fall asleep anywhere, at anytime, if I'm tired enough.

Nighty night guys xx

- Melissa

Saturday, 3 April 2010

Does it ever end?

So today I shot my new youtube video and I was so happy with it after I finished editing that I was excited to upload it to youtube.
What could possibly go wrong?
Well, the laptop I was editing on crashed right after I was done and refused to be turned back on again.
After a riot that scared away my cat, I decided to edit the video again on my other computer.

About 2 hours later, windows movie maker didn't want to save my finished video, so this means that I've wasted 5 hours shooting and editing a video that will never see its light of day on youtube.
I really do believe that I will die from a heartattack caused by a computer meltdown.

But it's the same thing if you've worked hard on a project and it goes to hell.
You either get really upset or very angry.
I always get angry and then maybe very upset depending on the project.
Like right now, I'm so angry I'm close to throwing the TV out the window without even opening it.
That's pretty bad!
In times like these, counting to ten don't work.
But all I have to do is to step away from the computer before I do something I will regret.

Which is why I've had 24 cellphones in about 7 years.
Don't ask!

Anywho:
I'm getting some help from my lovely British friend Stuart with the editing software, so hopefully I'll sort something out.

I'm getting ready for bed now, so goodnight everyone ;)

xx

- Melissa

Wednesday, 31 March 2010

Makeup Haul

So I just posted a makeup haul video on youtube and the lighting was so crappy so I decided to take pictures of the most important things so you could see the colour better.

So here's the two lipsticks I got:


The left one is 01 Rising and the one to the right is 05 Midnight Sun.

On to the eyeshadows:


First to the left is Isadora 28 Frosty Sienna.
In the middle is Rimmel 002 Smokey Brown.
To the right is Isadora 20 Classic Brown.

I did get a few other items so if you want to see them as well just let me know.

Tatas xx

- Melissa

Thursday, 25 March 2010

Party at Phoenixfm

I am forever jealous of the lovely Vanda for being in Brentwood right now, but I'll be back as soon as I can :)
Last night was such an amazing night with Stick Around for Joy and Curveballs all in one night and I for one, laughed so hard my tummy still hurts.
The webcam in the studio was kinda laggy so when Vanda came on the screen with James and the cam froze, I could not stop myself.


Picture of the year anyone?

But the show was awesome and the always amazing The Tibetan Tea Company performed live in the studio and there was the usual random rant about free parking, Borat, gay bar and James losing it completely.

http://www.tibetanteacompany.co.uk/

You gotta check them out :)
Coolest guys in the world too.

But I've got a few things I need to do before Eddie Curry's show on phoenix tonight :)
See ya guys laters..

Tatas xx

- Melissa

Monday, 22 March 2010

Uhm???


Do I really have to explain?
I just found this and it really made me laugh.
This is what I find funny.
I know, it's usually what 14 year old teens laugh at.
Guess I can be a bit childish sometimes, but that's okay.
You're not an adult before you know how to be a kid, or so they say.

xx

- Melissa