After my last status update on facebook, which sounds like this:
''Don't really know what to believe. I don't wanna assume that everyone's an ass, but in my experience, they all end up hurting me. Am I an idiot for just giving up? I just can't take more lies.''
Now, I've got a bunch of messages after I posted this and it's so good to see that people actually care.
It's kind of hard explaining the entire story behind it, but lets just say that it would take a year to explain.
But basically, everytime I let myself fall for someone, I end up getting hurt.
And I know that it happens.
People get hurt all the time, but to be honest, I'm kind of sick watching all of my friends move forward with their lives and I'm stuck in the same place.
All of my bestfriends are engaged, and the rest are in relationships, so I'm always the third wheel.
Of course I want my friends to be happy, but I want to be happy too.
It's frustrating, when it's all I think about.
Everytime I'm in town, I get happy couples shoved in my face and I constantly get asked if I'm seeing someone.
Even my mum always asks if there's someone special.
She doesnt even know how much I hate that subject, because we never talk about these things.
I know I can talk to her about everything, but when it comes to love and sex?
But over to the mainpoint!
Last time I fell for someone, I fell hard, I even promised myself I wouldn't fall for his crap, but I did and it nearly killed me.
I know that this sound so far out and sad, but I just had to get it off my chest.
I can't always write happy thought and be all goofy and funny.
We all have experienced things that makes us rethink certain things and I'm to the point where I don't care anymore.
And I'm not saying that as a stubborn teen (even though I'm technically not a teen anymore), but as young adult with a lot of bad exeriences.
So what happens next?
But I really do appreciate the people who sent me awesome messages :)
You guys are great!